Without You-for Matt

My body aches and trembles
Lips chapped and dry
Parched without your kiss
I am listless
Weighted down by this exterior
I try to sleep
But your eyes peer at my brokenness
They rape me as the memories play like an old film
I gave so much
Everything I had to make you smile
Gifts you cannot return to me
How could you have known?
That the blood in my veins
And the breath in my lungs
The soul that I once knew
Would leave with you
A carcass, an empty shell you’d leave behind
Everyday I must face
That face
Porcelain skin
Eyes of ice
The breath so intoxicating
Breathed into my lungs by a kiss
I’ve gone under
Drowning in love I cannot give
You are the only one I can give to
The only one I can live for
No one else can sustain me
I am hideous
And someone out there is loving you tonight
You forget me
It’s so easy to forget me
While you hold her you can not remember
The sacrifice
My own life will suffice
As an offering to you
It isn’t worth living
If you cannot hold my hand
If our lips can never meet again
So be it
If I cannot hold you again
So be it
If they build a coffin my size
So be it
It isn’t worth it
Without you