Suicide Note

I love you more than there are stars in the sky
Than drops of water in the sea
No amount of words written on paper
Could describe this feeling in me

But the forever that I’m dreaming of
Will slowly wither and die
For you just can’t understand
What I feel is no lie

You treat me as if you need me
When in the back of your car
Making love as if it’s forever
Under that sky of stars

But the morning after you’re distant as ever
You won’t even speak my name
It seems that all my poetry written
Is written all in vain

Every word that I’m screaming out to you
Asking you for a chance
You shake your head and turn away
Dreaming of a new romance

But where on earth are you going to find
Someone who loves you more than me?
Someone as loyal and devoted
Who else can there be?

Please don’t make me feel this way
Like I’m just being used
Please don’t bring back times before
Of times when I was abused

I have so much faith in you
So much blind faith in us
Now tell me why you’re being this way
Why are you making such a fuss?

Fine just don’t speak to me
Shut me out I don’t care
But please promise you’ll come back
That you’ll always be there


So much is riding on this
My mind, body, heart, and soul
Without you darling I’m but a corpse
Forever turning cold

You say that I’ll find someone new
Well I wouldn’t want anyone but you
I don’t want another soul on this earth
With other boys I am through

You’ve taken me to such towering heights
Oh God please don’t let me fall
Please don’t drop me I beg you, darling
I just can’t take it all

You’re playing with fire when you play with me
I’m dangerous in so many ways
But I’ll never hold you responsible, dear
For a demise of all my days

Bury me with forget-me-nots
Deep down in the ground
So far so I can’t hear them weep
A deafening, horrible sound

I’m cursed; rid the world of me
Hurry, do it quick!
I’m corrupting all of the perfect men
Please, kill me. I’m sick

All I ever wanted was your true love
But you could only give me true lust
I’m damned, put my soul to rest
Everything I touch turns to dust