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A Lunar Amoretti: Inexcusable

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Yours is the only voice I want to hear
For the rest of my days
Whispering circles in my mind
A sensual hypnotic daze

I want to feel your fingers
Wound tightly around mine
Squeezing away all my fears
Melting me with a smile so kind

I've found myself lusting after
A forbidden sweet passion
Craving kisses I cannot have
Desiring in a scandalous fashion

I say your name slowly
It falls gently from my lips
Like honey it drips off my tongue
Awakens a fire between my hips

It's a name I will always remember
I wish I could whisper it in your ear
But how could you ever hold me close?
How could you ever call me dear?

If only you could see yourself
Like I see you
The way my soul worships yours
In all my dreams come true

You are so gorgeous, angel
A breath-taking, amazing sight
When I wake from all my terrors
I search for you in the middle of the night

Why can't I run my fingers
Through your long blonde curls  
And stare into your springtime green almond eyes
I'd give up all the fortune in the world

To place my lips on yours
Formed so perfectly into an innocent smile
That could only belong to a little boy
But it's been quite awhile

Since I was your age
I would never go back
Fighting for my life
Because of all that I lacked

And I'm not so pretty
Five years your senior
But I have not aged a day
In my heart and my demeanor

I spent my days lying in bed
Staring up at a stark white ceiling
When I was 15
They reversed my every feeling

With pills to numb my senses
And keep me caged in
And now as a young adult
I pay for their sins

And I wasted so many years
Planning on living
Catering to a man
That never got caught giving

He never gave anything back
And it's been quite awhile
Since I've seen that love and kindness
That I've witnessed in your smile

Oh God, if I could just touch you
Just a finger-stroke's worth
Just to hear you breathe
I'd always put you first

You'd always be my priority
You'd always be my light
You'd have my support, my loyalty and honor
My endless love, and my fight

And you must think there's something wrong with me
That I find you so irresistible
A child to my senior
God, I'm so inexcusable

Right now I am in a dark place
A place that gives no joy
And I'm so sorry dear
That I've found happiness in a boy

Just a boy
An innocent boy of fifteen
God what's wrong with me
Please don't think me obscene

I don't know you
But at the same time I know you
This is the curse that we play with
In this virtual reality that we live through

This is my love letter
My precious words that I create
For my Moon, my lovely
The boy that makes me wait
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